another week has passed.

do you know what i consider a blessing? 

i consider it a blessing that a year has passed since what we refer to now as "the d day." yes that was this weekend. when he called the wedding off, i couldn't picture one minute without him, let alone an entire year. it was impossible to picture what my life was going to look like in a years time. i was so worried that time was going to pass slowly because i was sad. i consider it a blessing that the opposite has occurred. time seems to fly by. i used to cry a lot. now just every once in a while. i finally stopped counting the days since the incident. i consider it a blessing that i have friends who understand why i hate walking out of barnes and nobles and looking across the street to see michaels craft and peterson medical supply. i hate those stores. i am glad to have friends who know that the plain white t's suck and the first unofficial day of fall is now destined to be doomed. i consider it a blessing to have a family who is supportive and loving. i am grateful for the diet coke and ice cream runs with talks that will never be forgotten. i consider it a blessing to have a knowledge of the atonement. i am grateful for the book infinite atonement. i have such a better understanding of my Savior and His sacrifice. sometimes at night i just sit and ponder about what Christ must have went through, because of His love for me. i am grateful that He is the only one who really knows how i feel. 

i consider it a blessing that life goes on.